I'm obsessed with money

I think about it all the time. I know it's not healthy but I cant stop.
I just went into my "money draw" where I keep my money and keys and things and took out all my money. I had a $10, a $5 and some change.
I'm taking a picture of it now.

It's Friday and I'm home. I won't go out this weekend because I can't afford it.
When will I be happy?
I wish I had lots of money. Whats it feel like to have hundreds or even thousands of dollards in your pocket, and then go out on the town with friends and have fun. Order anything off the menu, who cares what the price is, you can buy anything.
I want to know what that feels like.
Im sitting home on a Friday because Im broke. I hate this.