I think I'm married...to myself and my work

Really all I want in life is to be successful. It's all I ever wanted was to be successful and for that to make me aand my family happy because I'll have the money to help myself and everyone around me.

I feel so uncomfortable with myself being poor.
Im so tired of it, can't handle it anymore. When is the success going to come?
What more do I have to do to be successful?

I can't be a good boyfriend/lover/partner until I'm comfortable with myself. I'll be with someone and my mind wanders off to my work.
This is sad.